2019年8月巻頭言 |
希望-神の愛のうちに 1 Denny Wahyudi (the end of July 2005) Reflection on the book entitled Hope in Pastoral Care and Counseling by Andrew Lester. デンニ神父様がアメリカ・シカゴでの神学生時代(2005年7月末)に執筆された“アンドリュー・レスター著 In my experience having hope is a nice
thing because I have many things to look forward in my future. When I was a
kid, I had a hope to get graduated from my school and work to live by myself.
Afterward, I had a hope to become priest and eventually I did enter the
Xaverian Missionaries after having worked for three years. My hope then continues time by time and
until now I still have great hope to finish all of my theology studies in two
years and get ordained in priesthood. My hope is not finished with the
priesthood ordination but I still have a hope to be a missionary in Japan. The closest hope I have now is to finish my
CPE summer unit then continue my M.Div program in one year and look forward my
May 2006 graduation then take vacation to Indonesia in the summer 2006. What
wonderful hopes I have planned since some months ago and now still I have these
hopes to be accomplished step-by-step accordingly. Lester writes that our finite hope grows
out of our experience of God’s love. "Our security is in the relationship
and not the particular events" (66). It is true that I put my hopes in
certain events and possibilities ahead of me that I plan beforehand as I
elaborate above. If I only put these hopes in my own criteria and expectation
that all of them should happen, I will feel frustrated very easily when one or
more hopes fail to happen. As a Christian I should put my hopes in
God’s plan and will. Let my hopes to be happened in God’s will. God is in the
process of my human hopes. God is the only one who can make my hopes to be
transfinite hope in the future. Again Lester pointed out,
"Transfinite hope inspires and motivates because it acknowledges a
future that goes beyond our finite vision" (67). I realize that sometimes I put my hopes only
in my merely plan and eagerness, not transcend them in God’s plan. I think
often times that if I can fulfill my planning hopes in the future, I
will gain satisfaction. In
fact, every time I gain my hope that I
have planned, I still feel some degrees
of incomplete satisfaction. Instead, when I put my planning hopes in
God’s will in the transcendence ways, whatever the results of my hopes, I do
not feel satisfied or unsatisfied but in God’s plan I just surrender in what’s
happening in reality. My vision to gain my hopes is limited in my temporary
perception but in God’s hands I totally should give up my own ever-changing
idea to be fulfilled. |